Today's LA Times (pg.A7) reports that the death of Pat Tillman was the result of "friendly fire" and that this information was/is available in an "unclassified executive summary". I have to believe that this is not NEW info but was available at the time of Tillman's death. Since this is true, I have to ask what kind of political game is being played and who is being served by this deception? His death was praised as the ultimate sacrifice, the ultimate American sacrifice (he gave up millions) and we, the American public, were allowed to participate in the orgy of public breast beating that ensued. How could this happen? How does it continue to happen that our prison warders, our politicians, our corporate leaders; everyone it sometimes seems; act as though they can continuously get away with lying about what they're doing? If media matters and has a responsibility, it has to be to accurately report the truth regardless of the political ramifications.

The more I work with computers the less I understand about them. I know that much of the programming is set up to be transparent but I can't see the value of being left in the dark when things don't appear in the right places.

I wish, I wish, I wonder why? The things we do, they make my insides cry. Vomitus that's another way I feel, sick sick of all this deal. Like Harlan Ellison, I have no mouth and I must scream. And what good are all the warnings, writings, fortellings; if we are still here right where we began?

Well, what can I say, the pages of the LA Times are loaded with the catastrophe that is Iraq. And the defenders of the American way are at bay, and all I can think about seriously is Fisher's 0.4 shot and the effort of the Laker team that I saw exhibited in the last four games. I know that I am avoiding reality in doing this but I find myself on some secret level really glad that I can do it. Because you and I know, that really things, are not okay. Things like the politics of the world, the business of the world aren't going to disappear or somehow change into a reality where what we actually should have learned from all of our so called human progress will bring us to a peaceful cessation of our constant wars with each other. I think I actually believe we should elect to be the real country that stands for peace and the progress of humankind. If we are going to sacrifice our young in war, why not instead put our selves on the line for peace. Put away our weapons. Live up to our own ban on weaponry of mass destruction by putting down our own first. In a word, prove what we mean by example.

Tis passing strange this new congfiguation but I guess we work with what we have and then go on. Today, my mind can't help to wonder about those prison guards in Iraq and how they could do what they did while knowing they were being photographed? What were they thinking, smiling at the camera while abusing someone with a leash, a club? Did they want their moment in the media? Did they need some verification that their behavior was all right? I have to think about this more?

This is passing strange. Yesterday I posted a blog and was informed that it had posted but now I look and it is not there.

Finally, after many, many months of wanting to add comments then not wanting to add comments (who needs the hassle anyway?), I've done it. Of course, this may only add to my frustration if no one sees, reads, wants to respond to my ongoing thoughts about this messy world in which we live.